Cosmic Movie
I experienced a deep meditation state unlike any other where I witnessed a Cosmic movie. What did I just see?
May 15, 2023
Time: 17:00hrs
Location: Mumbai, India
I have been feeling sick past few days and I had to pause my daily yoga practices. I’ve been energetically feeling low, unmotivated and groggy.
After spending a whole afternoon writing, reading and resting, I finally mustered up some energy and decided to take charge of my healing.
I played some healing frequencies and within minutes my mind was out of it.
Meh, Okay.
‘This is not working.’
I just wanted to meditate.
But you can’t just sit and “meditate” you have to prepare yourself, your mind.
The best way I do that is by centering myself through Primordial Sound meditation - AUM.
Today I chose to do a few rounds of AUM followed by a Chakra Meditation.
Why I chose Chakra Meditation? Because I wanted to cleanse the stagnant energies and clean my aura. And I have been introduced to it through my Yoga Teacher Training in India.
What started as a naive request to clean my energy body turned into a meditation state unlike any other I’ve ever experienced.
I decided to share this with my spiritual community here. I have consciously chosen and created this platform just so I can honestly share such experiences and MORE!
So, ereeeee we gew……
Chakra Meditation began and it was 35 minutes long. As I repeated each chakra’s mantra I could feel a disconnect from my body.
‘No wonder I’ve not been feeling my usual energetic self’
As I ascended each Chakra through Mantras, a very interesting thing happened when I reached at Ajna Chakra (Third eye) chanting ‘Om’
I felt my third eye like a magnet gathering all the vibrations in the center of my forehead and from here it moved up towards the Sahasrara chakra (crown chakra) It was a ticklish, tingling feeling.
Naturally the next stage was chanting ‘Aum’ mantra for Sahasrara and I felt tingles at the top of my head. I do not recall how long the mantra was to be repeated. I intuitively stopped and sat in silence feeling the vibrations inside me.
The most important part about chanting ‘Om’ ‘Aum’ is to sit in silence and feel the vibrations. This is where all the hard work you have done bears its fruit.
This is where the fun begins. . .
I sat and felt the vibrations of the sounds I manifested in me.
It felt incredibly peaceful. I was completely absorbed in it.
A moment later,
I saw a flashing light in front of my eyes. It was vibrating like a chainsaw.
It moved like a strobe light scanning and chiseling me from down to up.
I wondered what it was, it almost felt like it was performing a surgery on me.
Yes, it did instigate some fear in my mind.
I wanted to know why it moved the way it does?
What is it?
What is it doing?
I chose to focus on this light. A sudden shift happened.
This chainsaw like scary vibratory light now was a plain white calm light, it kept scanning me through each chakra. It kept doing this a few times and I kept focusing on it. AND -
I entered a dimension.
*The following events happened simultaneously within a fraction of a second*
The darkness behind the light changed its color to yellow and I felt a surge of goosebumps from the base of my spine to the top of my head.
I have felt these blissful vibrations many times and it confirmed that I had entered a dimension of The Divine.
It is hard to explain in words, the energy and the experience is so blissful and loving you just KNOW that you are in the presence of the divine.
My body felt lighter, I couldn’t tell if I was still holding the ‘Gyan Mudra’
This confirms I was out of body in an elevated state.
This shift felt so joyful.
It was the same joy I feel during the opening credits of a film - The lights go down, a blissful music plays in the back as you start seeing captivating visuals.
Here, it was mixed with an anxious feeling because you don’t know what you’re going to watch. You can’t predict the plot. There was no trailer and no Rotten Tomato reviews to read.
That’s the beauty and the scary part about meditative experiences. No two people watch the same movie!
As elated as I was that I managed to lift up my vibrations to this point, and that I had enough energy exchange to watch a cosmic movie, I was anxious as fuck. What if I unknowingly bought tickets to a scary movie?
These feelings of fear. Argh!
This is our subconscious mind.
I started feeling a sense of panic as I was in this beautiful state.
“Oh my god, You’re all alone in the house”
“What if someone touches you right now?”
“What if something happens and you wont be able to find your way back?”
There is no Time in these planes, so all of this happens simultaneously almost at the speed of light.
I kept repeating to my subconscious - “You’re okay”
“God is taking care of you”
“You are protected”
I even summoned my angels and guides to stay in this moment and take charge if things went south ( I was just soothing the crying baby)
What followed this was a transition into what I am calling it - a Cosmic Movie!
I was able to override my fears and this unlocked a deeper dimension to me.
~BOOM~
The movie began!
There were so many shapes, forms and colors just moving, melting, dancing in front of my “eyes” (Astral Eyes?)
Magnificent - Hollywood Reporter
Spectacular - New York Times
Divine! - Roger Ebert
I was smiling and witnessing this magical state.
I felt waves of blissful energy in my body.
I observed each area of the vast space in front of my eyes - swaying, whirling, softening into other forms.
Meditative experiences are so powerful you just dont want to come out of it.
As my meditation teacher at The Yoga Institute used to say, “Yoga is difficult to reach but easy to break”
There were so many thoughts trying to break this state -
A thought passed my mind and I wondered if my ‘Gyan Mudra’ was still in place or not. I couldn’t feel my hands.
And then, the fear mind flooded in.
The fear mind kicks in at times when you are in elevated states.
This is because the mind does not know how to make sense of this ‘spiritual’ experience. The mind is so intensely bound to the material world that anything in the spiritual plane scares it.
Isn’t that funny?
We are scared of the very essence that we are.
We think we are Humans.
We have forgotten that we are actually spiritual beings having a human experience.
I’m no advanced yogi in this life time, so naturally the fear of the unknown crept in and the cosmic movie gently dimmed down.
*Roll Credits*
I felt a warm rush in my hands and a sense of heaviness in my body.
I was back in my physical body.
I took my time to open my eyes even though a part of me wanted me to force them open and run away.
I did not feed to that fear.
I thanked the Divine for allowing me to come witness it today.
I talked to the higher consciousness, “I am learning day by day to KNOW you”
As I allowed my eyes to open naturally, the eye lids opened half way and my eyes were rolled up. I could see the physical plane and the astral plane.
Fear mind kicked in some judgemental comments -
“You look so stupid”
“You look crazy”
I was gentle with these comments and slowly came back.
The first thing I did was I looked at my hands.
YES!
This entire time I had not broken the ‘Gyan Mudra’ Yay!! (I don’t know why my mind was so adamant to know if my Mudra was held the entire time)
I went straight to my Ipad to note down this experience.
I have done a LOT of meditations and I do minimum one meditation every day.
But, this experience was unlike anything ever before!
As Divine as it was, I learnt a lot about my fear-driven mind - how it wants to keep me entangled in my daily groggy routine that dulls my spirit.
This is the nature of the mind.
The mind only knows what it has heard or seen or experienced in the very limited environment it is surrounded with. So anything that is outside of it, the mind rejects because there is no memory/data stored in the conscious mind.
Now how about I switch this up a bit.
What if I tell you that your highest version of yourself IS outside of anything you can ever imagine!
What is Imagination? imagination comes from some reference, the mind searches through the millions of data and puts together a beautiful picture.
But what if I tell you there is something far beyond it?
This higher version of yourself is unattainable because you are driven by your Fear mind.
So You are holding yourself back from reaching your highest potential. From being your Higher Self.
You are scared of your own POWERS.
I have REALIZED this today through my meditation - I have held myself back because of my fears and judgements towards myself. I witnessed the fear mind creep in.
If you keep doing the same thing everyday how do you expect to have a different result?
So, muster up the courage to face yourself and let love and compassion win over fear.
You need not fear GOD!
You need not fear yourself.
Remember,
You are Divine!
You are Light!
You are the Universe!
The Soul is Sat-Chit-Ananda : ever-existing, ever-conscious, ever-new Bliss.
Hope this experience inspires you and awakens you to catch your fear-based mind from driving you away from your True Self.
Love you all,
Namaste.
I would love to read any of your meditative experiences. Comment below!
Do not let that fear mind stop you.